Keep at it Heikki I'm sure you will get there. I can't offer much words of wisdom or magical cures myself..
I tried smoking - never liked it
I tried cannabis - knew I would never like it, and I was right.
I've Injected Heroin, liked it, never came dependent and stopped suddenly - suboxone side-effects were terrible - never re took it up
I've injected ICE Meth-amphetamine, liked it, never got dependent also stopped suddenly.
I've injected Ketamine, really don't like it.
Party Drugs MDMA, Ecstasy, has it's moments, never got dependent.
Speed I have done too - I think I've done like every drug there is and every combination haha.
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I have a beer-Jack Daniels in the afternoons / evenings, I do enjoy that and have always had some beer and such to unwind after a big day at work - with computers. I have a happy hour 4-6PM most nights after work especially on Thursdays and Friday nights.
The reason why I'm not addicted, even after heavy use of all these, is why I don't have any answers to help anybody.
All I can say is be determined and make your goals realistic. lots of little wins will pay off!! Your doing so well Heikki!!
